12/22/2025
I wrote this in 2022 about the passing of my Grandma. I have been up for 2 hours, her laughter was ringing in my ears when my eyes opened. I have been trying to come up with words to describe what it feels like to still miss her so intensely...I cannot. I do know that she is so proud of each and everyone of us. For me personally, I try to live with her deep sense of empathy and compassion, sometimes I fail but she was a believer in the idea that redemption doesn't come with the uttering of words. It is found in our daily actions, the simple act of just loving one another, even when differences run deep. If you do one thing this holiday season, make it be an act of kindness. Hold the door for someone, tell a service worker thank you for taking care if you, let a person go ahead of you in a check out, leave a big tip, drop off a gift to an unsuspecting neighbor or just smile and tell someone they matter. Life isn't about grand gestures, it is about all the little actions we do that bring smile, laughter and a sense of wholeness into life.
"On December 22, 2013 my Grandma left this earth. She frequently reminds us that she is right by our sides. Her sparkling laughter rings in our ears and warms our souls. She whispers words of encouragement, as soft as a butterfly wings, directly into our hearts, reminding us that we are so blessed to love and be loved.
Our dreams are filled with the smells of freshly baked bread and the hum of her sewing machine, all gentle pushes to get up and create something every day. Our tables fill with food and the chairs fill with people, honoring her teachings that there is always a seat available and a plate that can feed someone.
Though she is gone from our sight, she lives on in all of us, nudging us to be better, be kind, be accepting and to never give up. She exists in the dappled light of a shade tree, the scent that fills the air from the lilacs and that feather that always seems to float down from somewhere. She beats in our hearts and is the twinkle in our eyes, the reason we will suddenly break out in a smile or tackle a new project. She is us and we are her ❤"