26/05/2025
"I lost parts of myself trying to meet your expectations, and in the process, I stopped recognizing who I was."
Because of the way you treated me, I became someone I didn’t even recognize. I spent so much time trying to understand you, to adapt to your moods, to meet your expectations, that I stopped paying attention to my own needs, my own boundaries, and even my own identity. I started making excuses for things that hurt me, convincing myself it was normal or that I was just being too sensitive. Slowly, without even realizing it, I let go of the parts of myself that once made me feel strong, confident, and grounded. I became quieter, more anxious, more reactive. I found myself doing and saying things I never thought I would, all in response to the emotional chaos I was constantly surrounded by.
And the saddest part is that I truly believed if I just held on a little longer, if I just loved harder, something would change. But in trying to hold on to you, I let go of me. It’s painful to admit how much I lost in the process. I look back now and wonder how I let myself get so far from who I really am. And while I can't undo what's happened, I can choose to reclaim myself—to heal, to grow, and to never again let someone else's treatment of me define who I become.
~NKC Tv
